and you shall be my victim.

I fully expect you to save me.

I thought you should know.

I have made more than my fair share of mistakes. I guess I should have left some for everyone else. All of my thoughts are just fraudulent emotions. I'm only great in my own weakness. I am a joke (and I'm not laughing.)
Complete lack of capacity for human emotion.
Written and Read. Seen by someone else, known by someone else other than me because my own words are failing me, trying to make me fail and tear me down and cut off my air supply. It’s internal sabotage - I’m positive - subconscious internal sabotage.

3am thoughts at noon

Half heartedly thinking about doing things I said I would never do.
Getting too old to play this lonely game anymore.
Just want to feel.
Even if it's regret.


Lazily hyperactive.
So much to do and not enough willingness to do anything.