Oh I've finally decided my future lies beyond the yellow brick road

Add another pill to the arsenal.
My cabinets are an ever growing army.

Can't wait to escape- even if it's only for a day.
There will be dancing, and singing, and general jackass-ery all around.

If only Johnny could have opened up his heart...

They don't know what I do when the silence surrounds me.
When everyone's gone to bed, and I'm still roaming the halls,
Sitting on the bathroom floor, or in the corner of my room.
Lining all the little yellow bottles up in a row,
By size and by amount.
The smile the next day covers the desperation of the night before.
The words do nothing but lie.

Always on the verge of tears
The edge of the cliff grows closer and closer

I am done, this is it, I'm going away, with a wind, That's taking me to a place, It's different than here*

Morning sickness...
sign of giving birth to a new "era" of sorts.
Lack of sleep and chewed fingernails fill my nights
and lackluster eyes and inattentivness, my days.
Withdrawing and reconnecting.
Trying to get into the holiday spirit.
It's hard when there is so much to be unthankful for.
Someone always leaves me this time of year.
Maybe this year, it'll be me.

*PROMISE OF REDEMPTION
"The Fallbacks Of A Bad Attitude"
.....Get Into It.....